this is a sad, morbid, hateful, horrendously upsetting blog.
or so i think.
i'm just complaining & whining & grumbling & scolding & going off on like everyone in my blog.
maybe that's why i might really be a misanthrope. geez.
but, i don't wanna feel happy either.
cos the higher you are, the harder you fall.
it applies for emotions as well.
you feel upset, you don't feel as bad when something bad happens to you than when you feel good and something bad happens to you. your happiness just flushed down the loo.
i've ended my O's anyway. :}
then its time to work, aint it? gahhh.
however, someone took over MY PLACE in MY JOB that charmaine recommended ME and MANXUAN. ME and MANXUAN were SUPPOSED to
get the JOB. then that mentally deficient kid just took it AWAY from us, cos
SHE didn't LIKE MANXUAN.
:} you can have the fucking job, lol.
opportunities are endless, dodobrain.
so you've just read another dumb post of mine, and viewer discreetion is advised.
i took the lyrics below from ally's blog.
kind of felt... upset{again} when i saw the lyrics.
lol! and i fucking screwed up my two zakum chances ytd cos the fucking batch sabo-ed and the private batch CMI! FUCK, my 30mil on pots just vanished.
__ {this is maplestory anyway... omg i'm so childish... that's cos alex plays it.}

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
You know when you act like that
I don't think you realize how it makes me look or feel
Act like what
Why are you so jealous
It's not like i'm sleeping with the guy
I said yo
Why are you so jealous
It aint like I'm sleepin with the girl
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl
someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

be my jester.
8:41 PM